No traumas here. Just the feeling that either I'm growing or I'm dying. It's like those animations where the hero runs on a bridge which is collapsing right beh

No traumas here. Just the feeling that either I'm growing or I'm dying. It's like those animations where the hero runs on a bridge which is collapsing right behind him. It comes with a lot of self inflicted guilt for doing things other than the productive kind. I am miserable on weekends. It's not very balanced and I don't like it, but on the other hand I wouldn't want to moderate it and lose the drive. Balancing all of this is always difficult; kind of finding your own Lagrange point, and likewise energy intensive to remain there.