Realising after reading something insightful and simultaneously truly malevolent to the extent that I finally accepted that the two things could coexist without

Realising after reading something insightful and simultaneously truly malevolent to the extent that I finally accepted that the two things could coexist without cancelling each other out if you simply adopt a philosophical perspective I found disgusting, something that I'd dedicated the better part of ten years of my life to in the naive belief that it would be adopted and used from the same philosophical principles that drew me to it to begin with was not just naive in an inconsequential, minor way, but in the instance that temporal and economic power writ large might be imbued in parties within that ecosystem who would see fit to use it for things unambiguously evil and abhorrent. The kinds of malevolent sociopaths with whom my childhood had extensively familiarised me with, pursuing much the same ends, just with several orders of magnitude larger budgets and everything that implies. Had me thinking long and hard about if the appropriate thing to do was throw a complete 180. But after that thinking, I came to the conclusion that people like that already exist and pursue the exact same abhorrent and adversarial outcomes as this discovery led me to understand were not isolated to the realms of states and large amoral multinational corporations, and attacking nebulous means to promote specific ends will just change the means that are used for the promotion of those ends all the same. It is the ends one has to be very careful of, fully cogniscent of the fact that those pursuing the most abhorrent ends rarely come out and actually earnestly mark themselves as the monsters that they are.