> whenever i sit down to think about anything and try and make sense of anything in my life, I really struggle I used to feel much the same, but also found aft

> whenever i sit down to think about anything and try and make sense of anything in my life, I really struggle I used to feel much the same, but also found after I started keeping a diary in early 2018 that this got a lot easier. Being able to refer back to my earlier thoughts and considerations, as I wrote them down and thought through them in the moment, saved a lot of time in "getting up to speed" on prior context, and also enabled me to test my hypotheses for why I felt a way or what might help me feel differently. It's made a huge difference, despite that I didn't start with that expectation, or really any expectation - I had a flu and a 102° fever for most of that week and the next, I didn't go into it expecting anything to make much sense at all! I just started, and stuck with it, and that seems to have been the thing that counted. For you it might be worth a try, or it might not. That's true of anything, and I think it may be worth considering that it's not necessarily possible to know going in what's really going to help and what isn't. More important, I think, is to be willing to give things a try, in order to find out whether they really are useful. If that means working a little less to make space, then sure, to some extent there's a tradeoff there. But on the other hand, if you don't put the work in on yourself, who else is going to be able to?