Sounds like classic depression and burnout to me. Sounds trite but I've found running outdoors to be quite therapeutic. Your brain kinda half shuts-down the c

Sounds like classic depression and burnout to me. Sounds trite but I've found running outdoors to be quite therapeutic. Your brain kinda half shuts-down the conscious thought parts and you just get on with physically moving. You don't need to be going fast or anything, but just being out for 20/30/more mins feels quite relaxing. I find that running around/exploring new parts of town or forest or coast or something especially relaxing - everything is new so you are soaking it up rather than getting lost in your thoughts. I have some fond memories of running around suburban silicon valley when on tedious business trips, not because the scenery was so wow, just that it was novel to run over to Moffet Fields or be in downtown SF and run into the Pacific Ocean etc. Tl:Dr - try outdoor physical exercise. Good luck. I hope you find what you are looking for