First, practice gratitude. Yours are definitely first-world problems. "I can't get motivated" is a much better problem to have than "I can't get food/medicine/s

First, practice gratitude. Yours are definitely first-world problems. "I can't get motivated" is a much better problem to have than "I can't get food/medicine/shelter" or "People are trying to kill me". Really meditate on what gratitude is. List the things in your life that you are thankful for. You feel "stuck", but you probably have roller skates on while standing on a paved road. Second, you clearly want to believe in something and have something give you joy/meaning. But you can't just sit around and wait for something to pop into your life. You have to make meaning. You have to decide for yourself what will give you a reason to get up and go through drudgery. What do you want to do with your life? What would you like your purpose to be (at least for the next 20 years)? Where would you like to go? You could keep the same job but use it to achieve some larger purpose, or change jobs. Or not have a traditional job; it's a big world out there! Third, consider that fear may be keeping you in that rut of mindless entertainment. Fear of change, fear of the unknown, fear of missing out, fear of effort, fear of failure, fear of success even! You know you're not happy; so what will make you happy? Or what would you like to try that might make you happy? Or content, anyway? First decide on that, then build your courage, then go get it. And remember that you also don't have to do anything interesting or fulfilling or exciting. You can just be a regular person with a regular job and regular friends and not seek anything. But do recognize the good things that you have and appreciate them.