This sounds like a tough position to be in. I once left a position for reasons other than advancement and in retrospect I think I delayed personal growth by not

This sounds like a tough position to be in. I once left a position for reasons other than advancement and in retrospect I think I delayed personal growth by not leaning into those reasons and doing the work to change myself. This may not be similar to your situation. I wouldn't advocate anyone remain in a position causing themselves physical or psychological harm. Wishing you well in this decision.