Is it perfect because you deep down think it is perfect? Or is it perfect because everyone else tells you it is? Your list sounds like a greatest hit of things

Is it perfect because you deep down think it is perfect? Or is it perfect because everyone else tells you it is? Your list sounds like a greatest hit of things people on HN, at dinner parties or elsewhere would comment as being dream scenario. But although it may objectively be a priviledged and dream scenario to be in, then that does not automatically make it the optimal scenario for you. Some of it could sound like you arguing with yourself about not being happy or content about a situation others would dream of. But if it is not YOUR dream scenario then it does not matter what other people think. I may be way off. But the other interpretations of your comment seems to be well discussed.