I don't want to hurt you but reading your story it strikes me that you haven't give coincidence a chance, not everything in life can be reached by hard working

I don't want to hurt you but reading your story it strikes me that you haven't give coincidence a chance, not everything in life can be reached by hard working towards your goals. A lot of things in life are random shit. sometimes you need to give life a chance by doing nothing. Success with your quest.