Well, I'm genuinely wondering if OP perhaps doesn't simply have the problem that meditation is supposed to help with. Personally I haven't tried it, but I can

Well, I'm genuinely wondering if OP perhaps doesn't simply have the problem that meditation is supposed to help with. Personally I haven't tried it, but I can see the value proposition, precisely because it sometimes can get rough with my anxieties, so whatever helps me stay on the present sounds interesting. I wasn't trying to sell anything.