Sadly, and devastatingly for the parent/child relationship, there are such creatures out there. As my dad said when I confronted him about it as an adult with k

Sadly, and devastatingly for the parent/child relationship, there are such creatures out there. As my dad said when I confronted him about it as an adult with kids of my own, "I guess I wasn't thinking. I couldn't help myself". Once I had my first child I was holding and rocking him back to sleep after a late night feeding and I forced myself to imagine doing to him what my father did to me and it completely wrecked me. I just lost it. It was utterly impossible and horrifying to imagine doing that to any child, let alone my own. I thought it might help me at least gain some insight into him, however feeble, but it didn't... it made me feel an even deeper burning hatred for him and what he did. Pedophiles like he is are simply defective and need to be kept away from children lest they succumb to their urges.