Hi man. I admire you greatly for fighting your traumas. Going to that dark alley to mop up what would feel like the sea. I am really noone to give advice but

Hi man. I admire you greatly for fighting your traumas. Going to that dark alley to mop up what would feel like the sea. I am really noone to give advice but I will try to give you what guiding words I have. Try to find your strength. Look for the spark. Use your powers to do good. Leverage the perspectives you've gained in life. Noone can do so, and noone has them, but you. Try to find a way to use the bad to do good. If you manage to do this, you or others might find yourself a gem too valuable to have even dreamt of finding. May God help you.