I think you should really shut down working for six month and stay away from all of this. You really need to understand that the world is not gonna end in the n

I think you should really shut down working for six month and stay away from all of this. You really need to understand that the world is not gonna end in the next 5 years and given your particular situation, you would be able to handle not working for at least one year. Once you're not in this race, you will probably engage yourself with other things and you will start developing a clarity in thinking about this whole feeling. But this is definitely something you need to implore otherwise it can negatively impact your mental and physical health.