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> Do you mean to say you're giving up on dev due to failures to land a new dev job...or you are trying to transition out of dev and not able to find a job in a
by dirtybirdnj 4y ago
> Do you mean to say you're giving up on dev due to failures to land a new dev job...or you are trying to transition out of dev and not able to find a job in a new industry?
I genuinely don't know if I belong anymore. I want to say I'm still a software engineer but the impostor syndrome has overtaken me like a venom symbiote.
Maybe in some subconscious way I'm punishing myself for my failures by getting a "lower class" job? I hope it doesn't last forever but I am just so PTSD haggard from trying to prove myself in tech interviews. It hurts so bad to keep putting myself out there and getting denied.
I don't think it's a forever thing, but I also didn't expect to be in a multi-year career freefall. Overall it't not about what I want because I have no control over what happens. I can show up and try but ultimately success is not something I can dictate or manifest.