I've never been able to teach myself calculus, it's one of the reasons I went down the infosec path -- I'm in a weird space where I can read most papers from an

I've never been able to teach myself calculus, it's one of the reasons I went down the infosec path -- I'm in a weird space where I can read most papers from anonbib and grok them, but anything involving curves etc, and I'm lost. I know a lot of things for pleasure, but it always felt like folks would zero in on whatever I didn't, to the point it destroyed my interest in a few things that didn't require calc.