> I call him with a first name basis because he's probably the person I know best outside my very best friends and my own family. Seek help. I mean it. This is

> I call him with a first name basis because he's probably the person I know best outside my very best friends and my own family. Seek help. I mean it. This is not healthy. You do not know him, you are infatuated with aspects of his public persona.