Make an appointment with a psychiatrist. Do it today. When you meet them, show them this post. Whoever is treating you right now clearly isn't achieving the des

Make an appointment with a psychiatrist. Do it today. When you meet them, show them this post. Whoever is treating you right now clearly isn't achieving the desired outcomes. I've been in the rut that you describe and while meds will not solve your problems they will give you a tool to solve them for yourself. It's not fast though, it takes weeks-months. (As for the job: for now, who cares? Just pay the bills - apply directly (avoid 3rd party recruiters*) for as many web dev jobs as you can, if you work for cheap in some role way beneath you then some employer will absolutely love that and you can use the spare mental energy to focus on yourself). * Usually I recommend them but in this case a company may not want to take a chance on you when they have to pay 30% of your salary to a recruiter as a fee - too much risk.