11 years in, took an 8mo sabbatical a few years ago but once I ran out of juice just having fun, got back into working again and hate it more than when I left.

11 years in, took an 8mo sabbatical a few years ago but once I ran out of juice just having fun, got back into working again and hate it more than when I left. But I forced myself to take the job to get out of a depressive hole after attempting to found a startup and finding it to be a spiritually bankrupt path full of utterly vapid people. Like many of you I contemplate changing fields but it's so expensive to live these days (in a place that I find desirable to live). I'm not sure that I'd like some other form of work THAT much more that I'd give up retirement 15y earlier. Starting to give up the idea that some huge shift is possible (or the answer). And instead just aim for minor improvements, accept only getting 70% of what I want. Anything more is a culturally conditioned fantasy complex. Trying to focus on simple pleasures like a sunny day or cooking a good meal.