> I have been like this for years, but all this time people thought I was making excuses to avoid getting a job or whatsoever. I've gone from not ever being le

> I have been like this for years, but all this time people thought I was making excuses to avoid getting a job or whatsoever. I've gone from not ever being let go from a job (or even getting ahead of layoffs) to bouncing down the career ladder to lower and lower paying jobs. It's not that I'm unwilling to work its that my idea of what I'm worth or what I should even be doing has been so scrambled by the rejection from my chosen career and at times rejection from jobs further down the line too. I have tried to go back to tech twice and had the most emotionally painful and abusive experiences to date. I feel like there's a societal expectation that you should just relinquish any dignity or standing you once had when for immediate and maximal convenience to employers. Worked hard to get where you are? too bad! Life sucks it's not that way anymore you're only worth $13 an hour now. Is my resume a lie? Was the last 10 years a fever dream? Was any of it real?