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My advice for the struggle is to reset via Ketamine. I'm currently going through it, and almost immediately after starting treatment I was able to play with Leg

My advice for the struggle is to reset via Ketamine. I'm currently going through it, and almost immediately after starting treatment I was able to play with Legos again. Honestly, I feel a little bit like a kid again. I also recommend doing something crazy and not by the book. For example, my new company is https://www.adama-platform.com/ https://www.adama-platform.com/ which is going to be exceptionally hard to turn into a real business since my focus is so diluted. However, instead of focusing on profitability, I'm focusing on joy of building. I'm doing everything "wrong". If you read the blog, then you can read between the lines as I struggle between "doing the tactically smart thing" versus "doing the joyful building".

Melting_Harps 4y ago
> My advice for the struggle is to reset via Ketamine. I used to do MDMA and psilocybin after hitting certain benchmarks/projects, and while it was useful to get the 'bigger picture' to come into focus, I'm not sure I want to do that again as all it did was justify why I acted with such imperatives to take those kind of risks/damage and never correct my behaviour. Ketamine is interesting, I went to a lot of DnB nights and that was often the drug of choice depending on the kind of night and I didn't like what it looked like when people on the dance floor gave into the 'k hole' so I steered away from it entirely. It's gaining usage in the US as a way to help with depression and such, which I don't think i have as I'm usually the most optimistic person in most rooms. Also, Ive never done anything 'by the book' either, I was always defying conventional wisdom as I simply didn't think my efforts contributed to much by doing the same thing that everyone else was. My startup in particular used Bitcoin to bypass financial censorship, and at the time no one cared about building a payment processor or offering financial services for Ag related businesses that were suffering from illogical censorship laws because alts and then ICOs (and then NFTs) were where the money was made from VCs. No, what I struggle with is with the enormity of the problems I see and not wanting to get involved even though I achieved my goals' I can't help but expend a large significant part of time and mental bandwidth hyper-focused on these issues, and seeing very little financial backing outside of minuscule angel investment. I did the MIT Clim-CoLab and their were a lot of promising technologies that didn't require much funding but most would never be able to go beyond a proof of concept phase.

Melting_Harps 4y ago

> My advice for the struggle is to reset via Ketamine. I used to do MDMA and psilocybin after hitting certain benchmarks/projects, and while it was useful to get the 'bigger picture' to come into focus, I'm not sure I want to do that again as all it did was justify why I acted with such imperatives to take those kind of risks/damage and never correct my behaviour. Ketamine is interesting, I went to a lot of DnB nights and that was often the drug of choice depending on the kind of night and I didn't like what it looked like when people on the dance floor gave into the 'k hole' so I steered away from it entirely. It's gaining usage in the US as a way to help with depression and such, which I don't think i have as I'm usually the most optimistic person in most rooms. Also, Ive never done anything 'by the book' either, I was always defying conventional wisdom as I simply didn't think my efforts contributed to much by doing the same thing that everyone else was. My startup in particular used Bitcoin to bypass financial censorship, and at the time no one cared about building a payment processor or offering financial services for Ag related businesses that were suffering from illogical censorship laws because alts and then ICOs (and then NFTs) were where the money was made from VCs. No, what I struggle with is with the enormity of the problems I see and not wanting to get involved even though I achieved my goals' I can't help but expend a large significant part of time and mental bandwidth hyper-focused on these issues, and seeing very little financial backing outside of minuscule angel investment. I did the MIT Clim-CoLab and their were a lot of promising technologies that didn't require much funding but most would never be able to go beyond a proof of concept phase.