It's great that you've identified the problem! This is a great first step. A lot of the challenges you're facing can be improved by focusing on improving your

It's great that you've identified the problem! This is a great first step. A lot of the challenges you're facing can be improved by focusing on improving your mental health. In my experience most mental health issues are exacerbated due to a lack of perspective. It's impossible to gain any perspective about what you _already_ know and what you _need_ to know, without having colleagues who understand what you're doing. My solution: find work in a team with multiple developers.