Reading this reminded me of myself so here's what I did (not a doctor so keep in mind that this may or may not apply to you): A) Kick porn out of your life, B)

Reading this reminded me of myself so here's what I did (not a doctor so keep in mind that this may or may not apply to you): A) Kick porn out of your life, B) Seek a good psychiatrist or psychotherapist. A) is, imo, most certainly something that you need to get rid, it's way too damaging and you initially don't notice this until many years into it. And yes, it can become an addiction. I'd also consider C) looking for professional diagnostics targeted at ADHD.