I'm not sure if my post is going to reach you, but here it is anyways: I don't think that the questions you carry within yourself have anything to do with your

I'm not sure if my post is going to reach you, but here it is anyways: I don't think that the questions you carry within yourself have anything to do with your skill. Those questions derail your thoughts and creative process as soon as something happens that doesn't feel like success. Believe me, I have been through this, feeling successful does not depend on your skills, or even how you think success feels like. It's really difficult to explain something that is so highly individual and personal... you gotta learn to, and this will sound like real cheap advice: love yourself. Embrace your imperfections, learn to stop feeling bad about what you think you are doing wrong. There is no wrong, only learned lessons. Stop judging yourself, and don't even start contemplating how people might judge you. Example: "I apologize if this isn't the place for a post like this..." Why not? :) you have legitimate questions that need resolving, and there's always people, especially amongst hackers who have been once asking themselves the very same questions. Don't be hard on yourself, there is no gain in that.