While i do not claim to have all the answers, the following suggestions might help. What you are feeling is normal. Take a look at the book Why we do What we d

While i do not claim to have all the answers, the following suggestions might help. What you are feeling is normal. Take a look at the book Why we do What we do: Understanding Self-Motivation by Edward Deci for some insights. Relentlessly work on improving yourself to get "better" at various aspects of "Programming" (assuming that is what you want). Don't compare yourself to others, focus on incremental improvement everyday and set your own Goals/Criteria. Become Self-Driven and proceed at your own pace. Drops of Water, if they fall continuously, can bore through Iron and Stone - Chinese Martial Arts Saying.