Thank you for asking for help. First off: you are burnt out, possibly with depression. I think you should reach out to a career counseling therapist, or a regul

Thank you for asking for help. First off: you are burnt out, possibly with depression. I think you should reach out to a career counseling therapist, or a regular therapist. You need some time and space to turn off work mode and just process all of this. You don't have to quit your job immediately, but it's clear that your work situation is unhealthy. However, your work may not be the only thing that's making you feel this way. Since you're only 28, you have about 30 years left in your career. Think of the long game. You may not be great at networking now, but you can work up to it. You may not have satisfaction now, but you can work up to it. Making a plan can give you a bit more stability. Anyone can have direction; just close your eyes, point somewhere, and start walking. And anyone can have satisfaction; for example, if your programs work, that's more satisfying than if they didn't. In other words, direction and satisfaction are a place we give ourselves to go and a bar we set for ourselves. Not only do they not matter, but you can set them any way you like. My own way of dealing with satisfaction was first to make myself care too much about my work, and then to change my work to be something that mattered to me. I'm sure it'll change again. My way of dealing with direction has been to keep doing the same thing while I dabble in other things and think about what else I'd like to do. Still working on it. But I have a lot of life left, and I've decided my life won't be a race to a destination, but a walk in a park. My biggest challenge is figuring out what park to go to. And getting myself to walk slower...