I've never found something as neat and easy as a singular event or story that challenges it. I've felt it challenged by the profound feeling of human connection

I've never found something as neat and easy as a singular event or story that challenges it. I've felt it challenged by the profound feeling of human connection, though. The very rare chance meeting with my wife that set up the rest of my life and led to my children existing, the feeling of absolute selfless love for other human beings. All of my life as it exists hinges on the difference in actions of maybe a couple of seconds. If I had done things one or two seconds earlier or later, my life as I know it and who I am entirely would be completely different. Nonetheless, I am atheist, but if there's one thing that challenges that regularly, it's the profoundly spiritual experience of powerful love. I'm not an atheist by choice, or because I've resolved to be, it's just the only thing that truly makes sense to me. The beautiful, magical things in life are more beautiful and magical to me if they just exist for their own sake. "fate", "destiny", and "a greater power" feel to me like cheapening the beautiful, profound, steady nature of reality. I'm open to other ideas, and I love entertaining the thoughts, though. I'm a regular reader of theology, because it all fascinates me.