The upside of hitting that critical mass is negligible to the downside of not hitting that critical mass. Even when I get rewarded in things that I took up on

The upside of hitting that critical mass is negligible to the downside of not hitting that critical mass. Even when I get rewarded in things that I took up on my own, I feel that the rewards are quite measly compared to just having a normal healthy mental and physical existence. And these are interests that I took up on my own, I wonder how bad it would be for someone pushed by their parents. But then again, I guess if someone grows up not having anything they're good at, they might blame their parents for not pushing them. Parenting must be very difficult.