I relate to the parent commenter (including their reply) so profoundly, it’s scary. The only difference is that I focus hard on finding the “right thing”; some

I relate to the parent commenter (including their reply) so profoundly, it’s scary. The only difference is that I focus hard on finding the “right thing”; some missing piece of information, or a strategy, that will suddenly make everything “click” into place. I’ve had periods of clarity and many more periods of extreme fog. My focus is so poor sometimes I barely feel like I’m present to experience life. But not being in control of my productivity is somehow the worst part. So much passion and so many ideas, but actually doing anything feels impossible. I tend to have success with momentum. I am currently working at a new strategy from several angles. I’m setting myself up to have better habits for my health (sleeping, eating, moving) and hatching a non-mentally-ill alter ego who just does things and has the qualities I desire. Faking it until I make it, hopefully.