Getting a little stoned and either turning on my audio synth stack or getting into unity 3D or bridging the two and fiddling with no goal until I find a groove

Getting a little stoned and either turning on my audio synth stack or getting into unity 3D or bridging the two and fiddling with no goal until I find a groove and flow state and dig into turning different knobs and buttons and making sounds and images fold on themselves for hours until I'm in kind of a fugue state all the while bouncing audio and/or binary builds because even if I save the project well (which I do) I'll likely never be able to get the same output from the machines again because I don't know how I got to where I get to. This hobby has it's seeds in creative habits I've had for most of my adult life but in the last six years or so I started to realize that it was the thing I enjoyed the most and it was really beneficial to my mental health and well being so I started making the efforts more deliberate and investing in gear and infrastructure to get closer to the dreams that have been in my head forever. In a few weeks I have some long time collaborators flying in for a week long thing where the fruits of that effort are going to be explored hooking the 3D space to the musical stuff with some depth scanners, projectors, and fancy HD cameras and also two giant FANUC industrial robots controlled by the software stack and synths in tandem. Follow your dreams kids! You too can make art that likely no one will care about but you and it will be awesome the whole time! It will be expensive and you'll never recoup the money spent... but if people don't look at you like you're a raving psycho when you tell them about your dreams, you probably have some room to have your dreams be more ridiculous. Also, it beats the heck out of remembering that people want me to build them web applications and my chosen profession is mostly a joke.