Whatever is currently going wrong the most...and I hate it. When I don't have something to focus on, I usually dwell on whatever problems I'm aware of that are

Whatever is currently going wrong the most...and I hate it. When I don't have something to focus on, I usually dwell on whatever problems I'm aware of that are the most emotionally troubling. That's often challenges I face as a business owner, relational conflict with someone I care about, ways I'd like to improve myself or change but can't/won't, etc. This results in a significant toll on my mental and emotional faculties/health. Simply resting, bring at peace, doesn't seem possible. I chalk this up to my analytical mindset, which helps me greatly in my development efforts, being unable to disengage despite knowing full well there is nothing I can do to change most of it. That and/or being prone to anxiety. Not sure it even matters why, it's clearly baked into my "wiring" somewhere. Due to this dynamic, I almost always prefer to have something to engage with. Programming, phone (usually here or news), TV, cards with family, books, etc. I don't like that I compulsively reach for my phone now and have to "escape" to these distractions, but as I've weighed the pros and cons, this seems better than the alternative of incessantly dwelling on the negatives.