There was an age (about 25 or so) where this lesson beat me over the head until I finally accepted it. It was very freeing. Ironically, it lead to the most prof

There was an age (about 25 or so) where this lesson beat me over the head until I finally accepted it. It was very freeing. Ironically, it lead to the most professional and artistic growth I had experienced as a result. Turns out that focusing on what's right in front of you and ignoring "big ideas" (which are often more practical for aesthetics and performative identity over material reality) actually frees you to pursue what you really want. By trying to worry too much about "big ideas" I was actually being lazy/anxious about doing the actual work to figure out the "interesting ideas" that I actually wanted to pursue, "bigness" be damned.