I’m not sure if this perspective will or will not be helpful to you, as a particular individual, but I would like to try. I get the sense that you are not bein

I’m not sure if this perspective will or will not be helpful to you, as a particular individual, but I would like to try. I get the sense that you are not being allowed enough of an opportunity to express how bad those feelings make you feel as much as you would like to be able to. And if that’s the case, then I wish for you to find the right means to deeply let it all out, in a safe environment, just so that you would not have to fear each morning about that feeling’s return. It is such a draining feeling. Let alone the double burden of having to also practice continually the simultaneous dispossession of internal self-restriction. Hope you love strongly again.