It's hard for you to know what purchases you MIGHT have done if you weren't constrained a priori to only making purchases from sellers that were big enough & so

It's hard for you to know what purchases you MIGHT have done if you weren't constrained a priori to only making purchases from sellers that were big enough & sold products innocuous enough to get approval from one of the big 3 CC companies, or what products might have been available without this limitation.