First of all. It very much sounds like you need to get some professional help. But in case you need to hear it while while you seek that help. * You are a val

First of all. It very much sounds like you need to get some professional help. But in case you need to hear it while while you seek that help. * You are a valuable human being. * You are more than what some person on the internet, or anywhere else, says about you. I hope you get the help you need.