If you're into audiobooks, I recommend "You're It! On Hiding, Seeking, and Being Found", a series of talks by Alan Watts [0]. I'm not sure if it can pull you up

If you're into audiobooks, I recommend "You're It! On Hiding, Seeking, and Being Found", a series of talks by Alan Watts [0]. I'm not sure if it can pull you up out of the rut, but it may help you to get out of it sideways. [0] https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/6583629-you-re-it-on-hiding-seeking-and-being-found https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/6583629-you-re-it-on-hid...