have you looked at anger management? obviously, you could go see someone, but if you'd prefer to work things out yourself you might gain something from working

have you looked at anger management? obviously, you could go see someone, but if you'd prefer to work things out yourself you might gain something from working through a book like "the angry self" by gottleib. it's not the greatest book ever - sometimes it's a bit dumb, and sometimes it feels a bit slow - but if you go through it step by step, including the exercises, you might find that it helps. i think it helped me. it starts with very basic stuff about what being angry is, then how to recognise it, then how you can deflect / control it in various ways. but the best part is at the end where it also shows how it can be a useful tool. i'm guessing that you're getting angry and frustrated. i do too. that book helped me channel that in a more productive direction. good luck.