I don't know if I have ADHD, but learning more about it, and other forms of neurodiversity, has recontextualized the first 2/3 of my life. I've usually managed

I don't know if I have ADHD, but learning more about it, and other forms of neurodiversity, has recontextualized the first 2/3 of my life. I've usually managed to get by pretty well through life's expectations, but I have had struggles along the way that were really confusing. Places where other people seemed to have no trouble meeting expectations, but I would constantly come up short. I also relate to some of the positive aspects or adaptations that folks describe. I haven't prioritized seeking diagnosis or treatment because I've largely figured out how to get by, to my own satisfaction. Although, I know that I could be more dependable to other people if I did. I have also suffered a couple periods of major depression, which I agree is horrible in a far less ambiguous way. I can actually identify some very positive outcomes of those episodes. Ways in which struggling my ass off to try to be okay pushed me to achieve. But I'd absolutely throw out the good with the bad, if I could. I wouldn't wish depression on my worst enemy.