Just wanted to say you’re not alone. I’ve felt like you for 30 some years. Somehow, I just keep going on. I have told myself endless times “just wait one more w

Just wanted to say you’re not alone. I’ve felt like you for 30 some years. Somehow, I just keep going on. I have told myself endless times “just wait one more week”. That’s the only strategy that has worked. Luckily, often enough, I’ll have a day good enough to keep the struggle worth it. But, realistically my life expectancy is still just slightly above 60. What makes it worse is that no one else (except those closest to me) knows - I look pretty “normal” and “happy” because I don’t want to bring down anyone else's mood, but inside I’m feeling pain.