I've done my fair share of "woulda, shoulda, coulda" in life, it was a total waste of time. At this stage in your career, I'd stop waiting for others to allow

I've done my fair share of "woulda, shoulda, coulda" in life, it was a total waste of time. At this stage in your career, I'd stop waiting for others to allow you to do what you want. Eliminate your expenses, save those paychecks for several more months, then quit and start a consulting business or similar. Put yourself in the drivers seat in any case.