I have always struggled with coding even though my University major was CS. I feel like I'm missing so many basics, like a major 'a-ha' moment. I've done the c

I have always struggled with coding even though my University major was CS. I feel like I'm missing so many basics, like a major 'a-ha' moment. I've done the codecademy & codeschool tuts, the MIT and Stanford online courseware and built a few bits and pieces. When I build things I just sort of hack it together from whatever resources I have available. I've got no idea of how to build robust systems from scratch. I still don't feel even remotely capable. I think spending time with established (and patient) coders would be really useful. Even just videos of folks explaining what working environment they have set up for themselves, some good practices and how they leave projects ready to work on again would explain so much. I want to balance the enjoyment to frustration ratio out a bit more! :)