Do you have hope that you will find it in the future? It seems like you did not find it yet? I am grateful that I found my key to love both with my spouse but

Do you have hope that you will find it in the future? It seems like you did not find it yet? I am grateful that I found my key to love both with my spouse but also via being increasingly able to connect to all the other lovely persons and creatures (dogs,...) in my life :) But it was a long path for me. For me, I discovered it more and more after years of dancing Salsa, Bachata etc where the best teachers always focus on connection as well as leading and following. Those experiences together with regularly changing between the lead and the follow - while always being clear who plays which part - was the key for me. And also the book "Hold me Tight" gave me mental clarity which led to mental clarity for organizing the experiences that I had in my life before. It was a life-changing event for me when I learned about this. together with watching the following video (which I did 1 year before and practiced it regularly with my wife): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l7TONauJGfc&t=2s https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l7TONauJGfc&t=2s