This is a real life :) I get your point and I know some people who work your way who went very far. But if you don't want examples from my circle just read some

This is a real life :) I get your point and I know some people who work your way who went very far. But if you don't want examples from my circle just read some biographies. People who spend 1000s of hours on something are passionate about it, they really want it. I don't think you can discipline yourself to spend 12h daily on something without going insane. But if you really want it, it's effortless, it's what you want to do. I'm taking time to respond because what you say is what I've been thought, and I think it's just unnecessary mental gymnastics that may cause suffering. If it does not and it makes one happy, then whatever story works seems fine. But having two different narrations that end up with the same actions, I'd choose one which is less painful. You are choosing to discipline yourself to be doing something. So you want to be doing this thing. If you allow yourself to truly question your whole life, then either you decide you don't really want to be doing this, or you understand that you do. If you bring out the contradiction to the surface, it just resolves itself. Because this is a logical contradiction in your mind - I don't want to do this but I want to do this. If you want B and it requires A then if you eliminate thinking about them separately and treat them as one thing - B comes with A, then either you want it or not. It sounds awfully like preaching, and I'm sorry about that. But since you took time to read it maybe you'll at least have some fun entertaining the idea in your head while really not wanting to do something. The concept brought me a lot of joy and made my life easier so I naturally feel like sharing it.