I had first kids in my 20s. Now 59 and in another marriage and my younger kids are almost 6 and almost 2. I live them to bits and every day I look at what I do

I had first kids in my 20s. Now 59 and in another marriage and my younger kids are almost 6 and almost 2. I live them to bits and every day I look at what I do and think how will they remember me if I die tonight. Morbid maybe but helps with choices. More emails or cuddling the 2yo and reading a book. Learning something esoteric about operating systems or doing the day’s wordle with 6yo. Momento Mori the Stoics way to remember we all die so make best use of time. The Hagakure tells us to always depart from others as we wish to be remembered. FTR I run a lot now knowing that it improves quality of life and stats show time running is returned in more time alive. I value those extra hours with those whom I love. I don’t care if I have to work until the day I die to support my kids but I do care that I have as many seconds with them that I can manage. And leave them knowing their dad ‘lived for them’.