So you are basically trying to get advice on something and tell me afterwards "I'm this, this and that." I really think that you should reflect more and relax,

So you are basically trying to get advice on something and tell me afterwards "I'm this, this and that." I really think that you should reflect more and relax, you are in a good position comparing people at your age. That is good... but I feel that you care more about counting the countries that you've visited(like 140 countries!) instead of the moments you had there. I do abstract a lot of things like that too, but sometimes its time to enjoy the moment. Well, I hope you find your way and be happy(or get out of boredom)! :D