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OK I'm considering a TL;DR. If you ask for it, I think I can write one. Yeah wall of text, what do you think I should do? Shorter paragraphs? Thing is it ha

OK I'm considering a TL;DR. If you ask for it, I think I can write one. Yeah wall of text, what do you think I should do? Shorter paragraphs? Thing is it has to be a wall of text because my whole life since getting into college is on my comments section, I'm accountable to the bitchvictim media for all of my comments. I have to split quotable, meaning easy to cherry-pick, phrases so they can't get the parts they want without including the part, the meaning, that they really really hate. I have to write defensively, walls of text, those walls of text are defensive walls, my comments as a whole are like a fort and the walls of text are its walls, it has to be fortified by highly technical punctuation/phraseology. It's like Paul Graham said, he gets port scanned by forum trolls. It's a whole art to it, free speech in forums. I want to develop the art form beyond its current state, like treat Hacker News like a forum for essayists, every comment an essay, but I am stuck thinking how. The crazy thing in my view is despite my comment history containing, and acting as one of the precious few records of, my lobotomy, I actually have done a pretty good job--this is just me talking here, my perception--of not saying stupid shit that will fuck my life up. There are two comments that are favorable of Pinochet, but I consider that excusable because the torture, the lobotomy (the medical thing they did meets both criteria according to the US Federal Codes), can in fact make you think false things, and that is why those two comments were made. But overall, I think holding consistency as the highest fundamental moral value just transforms your bullshit into this strange thing, like let's think of a name for it, maybe not-bullshit, nonbullshit, no that's too long..."truth" yeah that's a good made-up word, a bullshit thing that sometimes looks like the only thing that isn't bullshit, and it's good because the concept of truth is tightly related to broadcasting, consensus, witness, and belief. Sometimes I can write single sentence paragraphs too.

cercatrova 5y ago
I see, I read some of your other comments, and they seem unhinged quite frankly speaking. Please seek help, it seems that you think people are out to get you ("I'm accountable to the bitchvictim media for all of my comments"..."so they can't get the parts they want without including the part, the meaning, that they really really hate") when I doubt anyone actually cares.
- daniel-cussen 5y ago
  Yeah these last two days especially, can't argue there. But if it were my fault, I'd apologize. > Please seek help, it seems that you think people are out to get you Yeah I should amend those comments, went a little too far there. Although you talk about seeking help like it's going to dawn on me I just might be a little off. No shit, work on your reading comprehension, those walls of text? Top to bottom, left to right. Yeah am in fact a bit off, what did you expect would happen when malpracticed on my brain? You know malpractice on a bone harms the bone and it needs more care later, stomach same thing, like please assure me you're a doctor for you to be giving me medical advice? You can't just give yourself a smug little pat on the back for telling me to seek help as though that will fix my wretched life, it's not automatic, there's a whole art to actually obtaining psychiatric care that isn't designed to harm you. 60% of psychs are antagonistic, I'd say. And the psych ward? I'm a fish in the water in there, know the protocols, know the law, know the laws that apply and the ones that should but that you just have to let go. I spend a huge percentage of my income on psychiatric care, and it can't just be any doctor, with a carefully chosen doctor, of whom I demand the absolute best care, highly tailored. It's my highest priority in my budget, you realize, because if my mind is out of commission I'm screwed, whereas if I'm strong in my skull I can solve all my problems singlehandedly? Dude you think it's a simple matter of calling a hotline? Oh oh, just google the number! The contempt is unbelievable, if you wound up in a psych ward you'd never get out, never get respect from the staff, get drugged with whatever was in the medicine cabinet when you consented the least, never get any insights into working with the system and also plain working the system. > I doubt anyone actually cares That would be a dream come true! I got for sure harassed, arguably persecuted, I talked to a lawyer about it at length, like 26 hours ago in a Lider supermarket on Merced in Santiago Centro that accused me of not paying but refused to look at my receipt. 6 guards, insincere apologies, I made them cut the shit real fast. Before that a few weeks ago and in that case told I would be hunted down and gutted like a fish for telling some street urchins their speaker was too loud, for which they fought me in front of 100 witnesses, being righteous brings problems, I have witnesses. Do you want to talk to any of my witnesses, see any of my proof? You don't, you don't. Like hit and run, you want to give advice that makes you look good--to someone--for giving it, but never take responsibility for your words and actions and their consequences. Then you'd get a wall of text. And about that bitchvictim media you asked about--you answered your own questions.

cercatrova 5y ago

I see, I read some of your other comments, and they seem unhinged quite frankly speaking. Please seek help, it seems that you think people are out to get you ("I'm accountable to the bitchvictim media for all of my comments"..."so they can't get the parts they want without including the part, the meaning, that they really really hate") when I doubt anyone actually cares.

daniel-cussen 5y ago
Yeah these last two days especially, can't argue there. But if it were my fault, I'd apologize. > Please seek help, it seems that you think people are out to get you Yeah I should amend those comments, went a little too far there. Although you talk about seeking help like it's going to dawn on me I just might be a little off. No shit, work on your reading comprehension, those walls of text? Top to bottom, left to right. Yeah am in fact a bit off, what did you expect would happen when malpracticed on my brain? You know malpractice on a bone harms the bone and it needs more care later, stomach same thing, like please assure me you're a doctor for you to be giving me medical advice? You can't just give yourself a smug little pat on the back for telling me to seek help as though that will fix my wretched life, it's not automatic, there's a whole art to actually obtaining psychiatric care that isn't designed to harm you. 60% of psychs are antagonistic, I'd say. And the psych ward? I'm a fish in the water in there, know the protocols, know the law, know the laws that apply and the ones that should but that you just have to let go. I spend a huge percentage of my income on psychiatric care, and it can't just be any doctor, with a carefully chosen doctor, of whom I demand the absolute best care, highly tailored. It's my highest priority in my budget, you realize, because if my mind is out of commission I'm screwed, whereas if I'm strong in my skull I can solve all my problems singlehandedly? Dude you think it's a simple matter of calling a hotline? Oh oh, just google the number! The contempt is unbelievable, if you wound up in a psych ward you'd never get out, never get respect from the staff, get drugged with whatever was in the medicine cabinet when you consented the least, never get any insights into working with the system and also plain working the system. > I doubt anyone actually cares That would be a dream come true! I got for sure harassed, arguably persecuted, I talked to a lawyer about it at length, like 26 hours ago in a Lider supermarket on Merced in Santiago Centro that accused me of not paying but refused to look at my receipt. 6 guards, insincere apologies, I made them cut the shit real fast. Before that a few weeks ago and in that case told I would be hunted down and gutted like a fish for telling some street urchins their speaker was too loud, for which they fought me in front of 100 witnesses, being righteous brings problems, I have witnesses. Do you want to talk to any of my witnesses, see any of my proof? You don't, you don't. Like hit and run, you want to give advice that makes you look good--to someone--for giving it, but never take responsibility for your words and actions and their consequences. Then you'd get a wall of text. And about that bitchvictim media you asked about--you answered your own questions.