I'm sorry you have to go through this. The human psyche is truly marvelous at generating unhappiness. If you are don't have anything and haven't reached your po

I'm sorry you have to go through this. The human psyche is truly marvelous at generating unhappiness. If you are don't have anything and haven't reached your potential you are unhappy because you feel like a loser. If you are on the upswing and growing you might feel unhappy because you didn't make it yet. And when you made it, well, that's when you are unhappy because you are past your zenith. Why is it like this? Who knows, but the Buddhist have some good ideas about it, I find. From personal experience (I used to lie on the couch wishing I'd die every day for weeks) I can recommend the following three things: * Move your body in sunlight. I'm not talking about becoming ripped or doing and Ironman or something crazy, I am simply talking about doing an amount and intensity of exercise you can sustain a couple of times a week every week outside when the sun is out. Once I did this for three weeks or so I found that this dreadful feeling of emptiness faded and that I hardly felt discontent anymore. These feelings return when I stop doing that which usually is my trigger to start again. * Read & follow the book "The Happiness Trap" <https://www.amazon.com/Happiness-Trap-Struggling-Start-Living/dp/1590305841/ https://www.amazon.com/Happiness-Trap-Struggling-Start-Livin...> I'd credit this book with the single biggest impact on my life. I remember crying from relief after doing one of the exercises. * When you got yourself together somewhat I'd recommend having a child. It's the most fun and satisfaction I ever had in my whole life and it makes everything else so much better. I hope this is useful to you and that you get better soon.