Turn inward. Your physical survival is taken care of, now there is only conscious evolution. Your mind (thoughts/feelings/emotions) is going to do what it has

Turn inward. Your physical survival is taken care of, now there is only conscious evolution. Your mind (thoughts/feelings/emotions) is going to do what it has always done - run rampant. Now with the emptiness you're feeling, you'll want to pay even attention to them. Don't. You're looking for a feeling of joy just for being alive. It's not found in the physical body or your mind. It's much deeper. The journey starts with stillness. I suggest the following: - some type of meditation (no apps), anything involving stillness - being with the earth (gardening, walking) - skip all media (at least not consuming it in the desire to find answers) Where you are now is harder than the past 44 years. You have to consciously (not compulsively like up till now) move forward.