I'd call them "intrusive thoughts", like a (silent) voice in my own head that tells me something demeaning about myself (not actually it, but similar to "I'm a

I'd call them "intrusive thoughts", like a (silent) voice in my own head that tells me something demeaning about myself (not actually it, but similar to "I'm a racist".) But when faced with the real world manifestation of these ideas, my emotions play out like these thoughts are indeed false. And I'd expect the reinforcement to correct this over time. But it hasn't. Causes great anxiety in quiet moments, and i'm hyper aware of certain social situations. It also comes up in dreams sometimes. The idea about myself came up mid-trip, and from it poured out empathy for others (good) but somehow the anxiety inducing parts never left.