I think you should pursue this. Primarily because it will force you to structure your ideas and that will benefit you personally. I don't think you should pay

I think you should pursue this. Primarily because it will force you to structure your ideas and that will benefit you personally. I don't think you should pay much attention to any feedback you get here as this isn't really the right forum for meaningful discussion of such topics. Yes, this is an incredibly ambitious path to set off on. Yes, the likely outcome is that your book will simply be ignored. That's the most likely outcome for any book, and moreso for books on deep, serious topics. So be sure you're ready for that, and do it anyway.