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Holy mother of God. Hats off to you for "coming out" "normal". I know it is so so stupid of me to use the "normal" word but I wanted to celebrate your rescue

Holy mother of God. Hats off to you for "coming out" "normal". I know it is so so stupid of me to use the "normal" word but I wanted to celebrate your rescue, your enduring and the whole journey. Wouldn't wish it on anybody (even my worst enemy). Just reading this makes me so angry but I hope you are able to guide/provide safety to others based on your experience. Anything others can do in our daily lives to counter/attack this problem?

werber 5y ago
Umm, I honestly didn't have a problem with the sex work I did when I was younger until I was raped by NYPD officer at 17. I started off doing webcam shows, and I don't really have anything bad to say about it. I started prostitution at maybe 14, and it was honestly kinda fun, I don't recommend it, but a lot of the people paid for me thinking that I was an 18, if something bad happened I would pull the you just raped a child card, and have them empty their bank accounts at an ATM. And I still support sex workers. I was human trafficked not as a sex slave, but as a software and creative worker due to not having a visa in a country when I was about 19. I was being driven around in expensive cars and living in one of the poorest ghettos in the world. I didn't realize I was working for a gang until I had a package in my lap I was told not to look into, and obvi, I did and it was a brick of powder, so probably cocaine, but maybe heroin, and I kept doing the work, sleeping on my pile of clothes in a vermin infested home with plywood floors. I ran for my life when I came into the office and there was a pile of blood and a dead body. And when I say I ran for my life, I mean the physical act of running from people trying to murder me to shut me. Sorry for the vagueness, and lack of advice. Don't be a sex worker if you don't want to be raped, don't be lgbtqia+ if you don't want to be raped, and more than anything, don't be a woman. It's a reality for men as well, but most rapists are men, and most "victims" are women.
- samsin 5y ago
  Why do you view the pornography at 15 as traumatic, while prostitution at the same age as "kinda fun"?
  - werber 5y ago
    kinda fun is probably a trauma response, I thought I was one of Warhol's Superstars, the images and videos that persist are not things I consented to. What I should have said, was at the time I thought I was having fun, and a lot of the johns were very nice. But, there is a mental cost when you see your younger self in that position. You want to protect a person who no longer exists. I would never tell a 15 year old to do porn or be a hooker, or myself consume porn of that. And it felt innocent till I was violently raped the first time, I had innocence, I look like the boy next door, and maybe now the single dad next door, but I can't really answer this question with any sort of reasonable answer, there isn't one. Trauma makes you irrational
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werber 5y ago

Umm, I honestly didn't have a problem with the sex work I did when I was younger until I was raped by NYPD officer at 17. I started off doing webcam shows, and I don't really have anything bad to say about it. I started prostitution at maybe 14, and it was honestly kinda fun, I don't recommend it, but a lot of the people paid for me thinking that I was an 18, if something bad happened I would pull the you just raped a child card, and have them empty their bank accounts at an ATM. And I still support sex workers. I was human trafficked not as a sex slave, but as a software and creative worker due to not having a visa in a country when I was about 19. I was being driven around in expensive cars and living in one of the poorest ghettos in the world. I didn't realize I was working for a gang until I had a package in my lap I was told not to look into, and obvi, I did and it was a brick of powder, so probably cocaine, but maybe heroin, and I kept doing the work, sleeping on my pile of clothes in a vermin infested home with plywood floors. I ran for my life when I came into the office and there was a pile of blood and a dead body. And when I say I ran for my life, I mean the physical act of running from people trying to murder me to shut me. Sorry for the vagueness, and lack of advice. Don't be a sex worker if you don't want to be raped, don't be lgbtqia+ if you don't want to be raped, and more than anything, don't be a woman. It's a reality for men as well, but most rapists are men, and most "victims" are women.

samsin 5y ago
Why do you view the pornography at 15 as traumatic, while prostitution at the same age as "kinda fun"?
- werber 5y ago
  kinda fun is probably a trauma response, I thought I was one of Warhol's Superstars, the images and videos that persist are not things I consented to. What I should have said, was at the time I thought I was having fun, and a lot of the johns were very nice. But, there is a mental cost when you see your younger self in that position. You want to protect a person who no longer exists. I would never tell a 15 year old to do porn or be a hooker, or myself consume porn of that. And it felt innocent till I was violently raped the first time, I had innocence, I look like the boy next door, and maybe now the single dad next door, but I can't really answer this question with any sort of reasonable answer, there isn't one. Trauma makes you irrational
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