rang a classic age milestone bell this year (within last 12mo) and the internal dialogue has given much cpu cycles to "personal fulfillment" and what that means

rang a classic age milestone bell this year (within last 12mo) and the internal dialogue has given much cpu cycles to "personal fulfillment" and what that means. The author of the article spends the majority of their time comparing themselves to others(a very narrow band of humanity at that) and as such derives guilt shame and regret. Ive found that comparing oneself to another is a core behavior of fostering personal discontent. Its a behavior weve trained for since we began being social beings so its a very hard thing to conciously negotiate. I try my best to be reasonable about when and how i need to "compete" and when i do not. Getting over my ego (work in progress) has lead me to discover very much of my waking awareness does not need to approached as competition (either directly or as a general underpinning). this realize, each and everytime, is freeing and, as the bumpersticker admonishes: bark less and wag more. Note - spelling and grammar in loose internet bb post sqaurely does not meet "competitive" litmus (my performance certainly wouldnt win any medals had it qualified anyway)